I use this as a way to express how I feel. I don’t want to bother my friends. I don’t want to seem like I want attentions…I just want to be happy, I fake a smile everyday. I go home and lay in bed and don’t smile I cry slowly and quiet so no one can hear. My parents thing they know me, they don’t. I swear my boyfriend don’t want meh I don’t blame him who would want me I’m ugly fat I cut don’t eat sometimes and still am fat, I have depression I’m a defect in human kind. I have everything I could want. I still want to die every day. My mind isn’t stable my anxiety is getting worst. I have it now when I’m just doing normal stuff. What the hell is wrong with me!? I don’t want to be here… Cutting and crying by chance they both start with c? I think not and by chance I’m starting to do it more? I think not… But tbh I think to much and it why I haven’t killed my self. Can my parents and very few friends stop caring so I can take to many pills while taking a bath and drown… Then maybe u will care. I’ve learned that’s how society is. They judge and make u hate life and yourself but when ur not there anymore she was perfect and she was cared bout look at this picture she was so pretty look at how amazing her skin was… Oh she cut she should have told someone we could have saved her… But that’s life and one day I’m gonna end mind.